Pre-school jitters (or, I have no idea what I’m doing)

Okay friends, school starts in just over a week, and I’m feeling it. When I’m honest with myself, I realize that I really don’t know what I’m doing, and that’s terrifying. I mean, I’ve read a lot about how to “do” workshop, and I’ve had some training, but I’ve never done this before. I don’t know what it’s going to look like in my classrooms (yes, plural; that’s a story for another day…). I don’t know all the skills that I need to teach. It truly is panic-inducing to think about all of the unknowns.

On top of that, there is a lot of uncertainty going on right now in my home life. It is enough to have me feeling like I’m on unsteady ground all of the time. I want to start the school year off with a clear head and clear direction, but I’m having a lot of doubts. So I know that I need to just take a moment, put my laptop down, perhaps do some rage cleaning, and just breathe.

I don’t want to start the year off feeling so unsure, but I don’t have any control over what life throws at me. I can only control my own response to it. So I’m going to take a break, clean (seriously, my house is a mess!) and enjoy this beautiful summer afternoon. I can go back to planning when the sun has set and the kids are (hopefully) asleep. By then, perhaps, I will have a clear mind to tackle some of these questions. If not, I might search up some videos on YouTube about workshop. Or maybe puppies. Whatever puts my mind at ease.

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